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Well I got over my anger….mostly. I got beyond the frustration. Time has allowed the intensity of the grief to feel more manageable.
Now I set my sights on the comeback. I hate setbacks but they always bring about an excitement of the revival.
I realized in recent weeks how alive I feel when I am racing. My training and racing has taken a hit the past couple of years. Maybe its time to put more focus and energy into preparing for my 2022 race season.
This past week had, at times left me feeling defeated. I tried to remind myself that just because I was struggling didn’t mean that I was failing. But Dang it’s really hard not to feel that way! I was letting my clients down, I was letting myself down…..or was I? I don’t know…….my life was turned completely upside. It was a lot to just survive. Things happened that no one saw coming. There was no way to be prepared. I had to put my family first.
So now that things have settled a bit. Its time to readjust the sails.
Its does me no good to be angry and complain about the wind. Although there was something very healing about just being flat out pissed off for a couple of days. Not gonna lie, it felt good to just be in “Fuck it” mode for a couple of days. I’m always overthinking trying to do the right thing. It was so freeing to not give a shit if I was doing the right thing or not. And hopefully not too much damage was done to my bank account.
It does me no good to hope the wind is gonna change. Cause in this situation even if it does it’s a long way off.
So adjusting my sails is the way to win this crazy race called life. I need to adjust my expectations. Pick one or two things I can manage….we’re going for momentum here not perfection. I need to feel the wind in my sails again.
Tomorrow morning is another race day. I get to go out and run my race, be a cheerleader to other racers and be fueled by the power of gratitude.
I am grateful for all the prayers, and calls this week. I am grateful for my amazing community of friends. I am grateful doors were opened, and healing has begun. I am grateful to people who held space for us, and opened space for us! I am grateful that just this exercise of writing has reminded me that I am an overcomer, I am equipped! Its up to me to run the race with perseverance.
I will become better because the comback is always STRONGER than the setback!